God's child

It's your special day today!!
So glad to know you still live within our hearts <3 p="p">So many unspoken words..

In the memory of you, here is a old post
"Hey, I just thought of you again.
I just wanna say, i really regreted not knowing you well enough. From a more personal and heartfelt level and.. I am sorry for... #regrets #guilt
I recalled you to be known for your wide grin, witty remarks and well, awkward silence joke?
I am not certain about the awkward silence joke part, but i suddenly recalled about the joke on "the guy that was used to Hardship" Lol. After hearing you seriously and calmly telling the joke, for quite a while, the ending of it was a bit *cold* Then again, you created smiles and laughter on everyone face then.
It's such a pity i couldn't find the joke online with the exact words. But then again, it would not have the same effect as hearing you in person..
And yes, you made me smile while i am recalling this memory of you.
As a matter of fact, all my little scattered memories of you do make me smile. The first time i met you. Ghostly mansion near Bukit Timah. You kindly driving me to here and there. Red plates, yellow cars.
Even smaller memories of you bickering with Pet through messages during one of my WSNA class..
And that sentence you once said. Your tone was soft, but your words were strong. I will always remember it.
This is my impression of you, happy-go-lucky, fun loving daredevil yet with a calm voice and mature/ deep thinking.
But i never bothered enough to know you deeper or the woes you are feeling did I? I am sorry..
I wonder, would you be happy/ touched every time someone thought and missed you? I definitely hope so.
Oh yeah, the other joke which you mentioned was much much longer, but everyone refused to let you say, i wouldn't have the chance to hear it right? =<
Rest in peace, you will be missed by your friends and loved one :)"

You are being missed again :)

Feeling felt: you wished you have someone to talk too. But some wouldn't understand what you are going through.
And the others, you are afraid of hurting them even further.
Conclusion: You have no one to talk too. Grieving within your hearts.
The inconsolable.
Can't do a shit.

Studying

I am feeling so lost and demoralized now with studies, and it is only the 3rd week of school T_T

I don't know, perhaps it is because i was from a polytechnic and my newly found friends are from JC. They were sharing with me that in JC ,it is a habit to be revising on a regular basis. And furthermore, lecturers are emphasizing the need to do so, in order to PASS (let alone excel). 

However, to be honest, this is not something i am used to. I am used to slacking all the way until last min to mug for exam. A method which was dis-adviced by EVERYONE. Hence i am really lost at how to "revise" :(

As a matter of fact, i do not even know where should i start from. 

Should i be reading the lecture notes after my lecturers went through them? Before they went through them? 

Should i skip the lecture notes and read the study guide instead? 

Is it a must to purchase the essential textbook or would the study guide be sufficient?

(Ps:// It was mentioned that examination would be tested beyond the notes and study guide. Like serious? O.o)

The fact that i can't seem to focus on revising and continuous procrastination actually made me feel much MORE lousy and inferior with myself. Super low esteem and high doubt of my abilities.

I fear even before the examination i would basically hate studying and lose all my motivation and drive!

Shuckz!

Can anyone share with me some of your effective studying habits?
Emogirl91

sim time table

Cheers to my new chapter!

I will do my best! ^^

Here is my timetable for the year!

*Removed as i have no wish of inviting unwanted stalkers*

Ps:// I haven blogged to thank everyone for what they have done/ gave me for my birthday =O Damn ungrateful right?! Hahahaha! Still procrastinating lah! Oh well~ :D

*Humphf*

Life's moral

Someone said this to me: "自己选的路 跪着也要走完"

I shall keep this in my mind for every decision i made.

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Happy Birthday :)

Here is the birthday girl <3 A million thanks to her!

With Fang Yu!

With Eunice!

Happy Birthday! Best Wishes! *love love*

A chio camwhore to push the words down! :D

PS:// For interested folks, if you were to have a meal at Swensen on your birthday, show them your NIRC for a free complimentay Icecream! ^^
Pss:// The void deck hold great memories for me! It was where my bff, Shiya, spent time coaching me in my maths during O' Level >..< And the last time here was to choing Maths with Xueqi and Petrine.

Psycho Facts 2

Listening Skills

This is my own notes during Psy lesson. Do read it.

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1) Listening

è Different from hearing

è Able to empathy with other

è Built trust-> willing to open up to the listener

Betrayer of trust? -> If you disclose information to other peoples.

2) Barrier to communication

Diagnosing -> I THINK you should….

Moralizing -> As a friend/ counselors you should not imposed your moral value on them but to let them make their decision (eg: abortion vs giving birth)

Excessive questioning -> more interested in questioning then listening to question -> feel like you are more kpo than concern

Advising -> why do people  asks advise  when they do not hear their advice -> cause the answer they want is not clear cut -> do not want to choose

When people come for advice, they do not want your advice, they just want your support. So shut up and listen. Occasionally, prompt them with open question to show that you are interested.

Diverting -> divert from topic (or people) you are not interested or comfortable with. If u divert from people, they might lose trust in you and feel you are not keen to support them

Emotional support -> “I understand how you feel, I been thru this incident” -> Do NOT say you understand them, cause you DON’T. And it is not about YOU, it is about them so don’t tell them your stories unless they want to hear.

Logical argument -> acting out the feeling is not the same as expressing the feeling.  Eg: showing their anger but not punching. -> people should learn to show that they are angry rather than surpassing it.

“I don’t know” -> suppress feeling, not aware of the feeling.

Reassuring -> don’t bother saying: “things will turn out fine, everything will be okay” -> cause for the person she will feel very upset about the incident and IT IS NOT OKAY

Eg: If your friend tell you that she suspects her mother is having an affair, and she could not tell the father? -> how to handle: cant reassure, cant divert, cant advise -> Let them vent -> express bottle upemotion (how scary, her emotion, her reaction) ; 

Counselor ->must know what to say and when to say. Help to prompt them to open up with prying their boundary.

 Can you be emotional supportive to them? Psychological attentions without interrupting -> staying with them rather than spacing out?  Feel their suffering; People will talk to you if they trust and feel that u understand them

 eg: breakup. the pain is real, it affects what u think of yourselve and confidence level. (are you lovable?) and not just losing someone.

3 main skill sets

posture of involvement -> lay back. Don’t go to near or u will intrude their personal space

Appropriate body motion. if someone have similar rapport -> will be in sync to each other -> match and mirror  

Eyes tell a lot: Paiseh to have eye contact -> match by not looking at her eye contact

Match their energy. If they are depress and toking softly, you should talk softly too to build rapport

If the person is silent, just let them have the peace, do not push

Are they leaning in to you or distant? -> Have you said something wrong? Or able to let them explore their feeling -> should you lean forward or backward?

build rapport by: match them -> lead them

Eg) couple quarrel -> not sync to each other -> will not have eye contact unless intimidation (glare), keep distance from each other

Eg) lecturer happy with ppt -> smile , eye contact, muscle on  the face, more relax  vs not happy -> look at paper, frowning, questioning look

However, in some case if you match anger with anger, it will escalate the argument -> should use non violent communication.

Paraphrase -> short summary of what said, but should not leave out important, minor details

The level of trust in a group drop to the lowest level of trust in between two people -> should be aware of who you called into the group conversation

How to encourage someone to share more? When the person gives you an answer, u must invite for him to talk more. -> ask an open question. -> do not ask too many question at a time

If they suddenly keep quiet and look down -> they are reflecting (you have mention something they never thought about -> leading to internal battle, or that they dun wan to elaborate more -> give them sometimes before asking infrequent open questions ( vs close qn -> yes or no )

Eg) Why do you want to run this race? What does it means to you?

Suggest ways for them to be able to find solutions for themselves rather than “advising” them on ways to do it.

Meta procressing -> what do you think is going on with our friendship right now. -> very personal

Eg) You friend is ignoring u -> You approach him asking if he is angry with u or if he want to talk about it -> he answered coldy:  “no, fullstop”  ->Should solve by telling him what u feel

Eg: I feel OUR friendship have changed -> don’t mentioned negative point -> give examples of changes ( lwe used to be hanging out all the time)  -> focus on how u feel (eg: I don’t know, maybe I am too insensitive? I really treasure our friendship and it really hurt me that we had become this way)

Use common and neutral words ( WE, OUR) -> make yourself sound vulnerable

When you focus on certain things (-ve) -> that become your reality and the only things you see

What you are feeding you mind   -> If you have good view of people -> positiveness is what you feel

Eg) People are more interested in negative news -> exposed to the fact that there are many violent -> feel that the world is very negative

Have to be becareful with how you speak -> habit form by your parents (language pattern)

Violent Communication - > feeling like you have been attacked-> with the tone, the body language (sarcastic) -> react by defensing with aggression -> escalate argument

Non Violent Communication -> 4 key ingredient

1)Observation -> observe their reaction and changing your style to suit the person need -> size up the person and embed things into the self-conscious of others -> OBSERVE THEIR REACTION

2) Feelings -> react before you think -> eg angry when someone goes against your value -> if approach wrongly the person might ended up being defensive

The louder he goes, the softer and the slower voice you should use -> if someone is sick of the argument, will choose to walk off -> problem not solve

Sometime anger/ fear is used to mask sadness and helplessness.  -> everyone have the need for sense of belonging , achievement and freedom  -> must identify these need in order to request directly

Psycho Facts 1

This is something which i learnt during Psy lesson.

And i saw it on Tumblr: thenurseinpink: 

This ain't mine, if i bothered enough, i shall find my own notes on defense mechanism.

I done quite a few including isolation, regression, displacement, reaction formation, rationalization and denial.

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Defense mechanisms are things people use when they are anxious or in response to a threat (situations). 

Here are some of them:

1. Suppression

deliberately forgetting an event

2. Repression

unconsciously forgetting a hurtful event

3. Dissociation/ Amnesia

forgetting one’s self identity

4. Isolation

separation of the feeling or emotion from the thought of an event

5. Regression

manifests behavior expected at an early stage - child behavior (example: thumbsucking, bed wetting)

6. Displacement

transferring a feeling to a less threatening object

(example: Punching the wall because he cannot punch the object of his anger)

7. Projection

throwing off to someone what one cannot accept as his

(example: Person A says to Person B: You are so arrogant. When in fact it is Person A who is arrogant.)

This can also be said as blaming someone else for your own doings.

8. Undoing

repairing or making amends

(Boyfriend shouts as his girlfriend. Later on, he brings her a bunch of roses and chocolates to apologize)

9. Reaction Formation

showing the exact opposite of what one feels/ desires

(A person is very happy but he shouts at everyone)

10. Compensation

exaggerating a trait to cover for an inadequacy

(one excels so much in sports because he knows he cannot do well in class)

11. Conversion

expressing one’s feelings or traits through the body

(A man who witnessed a murder cannot overcome what he saw and then he suddenly became blind)

12. Rationalization

using a reason which is not the real reason to justify

(A student saying that he takes drugs because it helps him focus more on school)

13. Denial

refusal to acknowledge a painful reality

I think that of all the coping mechanisms, this is the one most used. This is also the first stage in the 5 stages of grief as stated by Kubler-Ross.  -> 1) Denial & Isolation 2) Anger 3) Bargaining 4) Depression 5) Acceptance

Example: Boyfriend broke up with his girlfriend. Girlfriend denies the break up and continues doing things for boyfriend like cooking for him, texting him, still calling him, etc.

绝望

No longer knowing how to move on.
No matter, how many times i thought i moved on, start smiling, being positive and grateful/ thankful towards all my friends.
Just being alone is enough to destroy all of those positive thoughts.
Climbed out of the pit just to find myself falling back into the pit time and time again.
It is really harder to move on than i expected...

Focus on developing a new me.

I have so many flaws that I dislike and is not proud of.

Now, I want to find a new route in becoming a better person.

I feel I am living too much in a comfortable zone with too much nice peoples.
The greatest gift god have gave me is allowing me to meet everyone of you. I am totally grateful of it. Thank you.

Now I need to relearn social interaction and how to foster better ties with new peoples met. 

I also need to learn the appropriate way of behavior and speech when interacting with others. 

I need to be more open and vocaliste. How many of you know the real me?

I realise I rely too much one everyone I have known so far to the extend of blocking myself from meeting new peoples. Thinking back, what the hell am I doing??

Besides that, I am too ignorance. Since sec Sch days till now, I am always the "baby" of the group. To be protected.

Now, I am going to rely on myself. 

Be someone that even I myself will be proud of.

No longer going to live my life in circle, going with the flow. 

To begin with, is starting to do what I dislike. Cause that is my biggest flaws.

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"Not only gf/bf are the most impt. You must open up your thinking. In his life, he have family, relatives, friends and you.

When he is always with you all the time, what his family, relative and friends think and feel?"
Don't let your emotion lead you

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One day

If there is one day when I am very, very sad. I shall go for a very very long walk.
I shall find a long straight road , with little traffic lights and walk from evening to next morning. Blasting music and just be in my own world. Gathering strength from the music. By the end of the journey I will be alright.
Then again i think i would be okay halfway through, so i can 偷懒 and not complete the whole journey! One day I shall try this out. Wonder how far I am able to achieve.

A Long Road (from Google)

A little more about my job.
So what do i do there? For the past 2 weeks is: 

NOTHING! Go there to chit chat, read books, cam whore, drink tea, draw tiger..

Da fuq.  So much for being called an admin staff when I am not even assigned my own desktop after 2 weeks?? :( It is like going to a chicken rice seller that does not sells chicken -.- Maslow hierarchy need theory - self actualization NOT met. 

By the way, the camwhore picture damn nice right? Cool bu cool arh? 

Another 2 random pictures. This post is random because i just wanted to show off some pictures I took using my phone. 

I think the Hot Tomato - Rosemarry chicken picture is damn nice can? It look nicer than the original chicken's look and taste (View in full size). Okay lah! The taste is nice lah! But it just that the picture seem like a picture of roasted turkey, served on Christmas dinner, found in books. :D Hehehehe

And the top picture is Xueqi's relative pet, QQ. It is just plain adorable! Little puffy legs that make it looks like a brown walking carpet *meltz*

风筝

Hi.
I finally started working after a month of staying at home. But it was a well deserved break after 3 years of mugging in poly. Besides, it is pretty much the normal 6 weeks, so this is reasonable :D So i am working at.....

My temporary workpass

...Microsoft! Not.
It is "Arvato". It is a company providing business process outsourcing services to various brands. And in this project, the client is Microsoft.
It was guaranteed  that there would be alot of OTs until up to midnight and even weekends. *tired* But then again, it is x1.5 the usual pay and it's only a 2.5 months. 先苦，后甜!
Actually, it is not so much about the money. I am more interested in the things i will learn and experiences i will gain from this job.  As long i had fun and enjoy working there, everything gonna be alright  :) Personal well being > money!

Having training.

So far, it seem good. There are around 25 peeps in my team which will be further split by 2, and then 4. And most of them are around my age of 19 - 23 (?) So no generation gap = less serious working adults = more fun. Hopefully. And on a brighter side, there are free flow of drinks in the pantry ranging from coke, soy milk and MILK TEA!

And the best part of today is.............

*Love these pictures! Look so 幸福！:D*

*Peace*

Meeting Baby Love <3 after work! No longer need to travel from west to east or vice versa! ^^ Really glad for this impromptu meetings. Felt so pampered and loved. Usually BF would be kinda unwilling to shop and walk around shopping centers, which would result in sulky me. 

However, today he seems quite happy to tag along even into "girl" shops such as Sasa and Cotton On! We spotted a offer of 2 cardigans for $20. Pretty reasonable deal. The usual him would comment it is a waste of money to buy. But surprisingly he said it is alright to buy :D Hahaha, but ended up i did buy since i don't need it. Nonetheless, feels so happy ^^

And we had dinner at this place The Mussel Guy. Quite nice i would say. The staffs are friendly, the ambiance is cool and calm and the foods seems of value for it's price. We ordered a sweet and sour chicken with rice set meal which comes with a soup/ garlic bread and drink. The rices have these super Hai Nan Ji Fan taste. And food ordered by other tables also look nice! *drool* 

What touched me is that Huihan who doesn't (really) like mussels, ordered 500gm + 300gm of mussels cause he thought i liked it. *touched* My boyfriend very nice hor ^^  So sweet the way in gave in to the bratty me <3

Ps:// I do like mussels but not as much as cheese,mint ice cream, octopus and soup! So next time don't need to order mussels alright?

*Sweet & Sour Chicken w Rice / Baked Cheese Mussels*

*Creamy Mussel / Soup of The Day*

*Hh - fierce Yy - I just wanna be with you. Whineeeeee*

*Hh - I'm cute. Ain't I? Wink <3*

辉翰就像是个风筝。有时要放开， 有时要抓紧。

我爱这个风筝^^^^^。爱爱爱！

Leg

I have this darned swollen ankle that hurts when I turn my ankle. And sometimes when I walk it also hurt. But, I will still be careless. Kicking it on my other leg, crushing it in a sitting position; kicking it on the cardboard and even a ball! oh god. When will I heal?? 

And my poor toes are turning purple due to unfitting shoe sizes :( but I leant that ny shoe size is actually 39. There. I said it. So attention if you are interested in my a pair of shoe for me!  :D Wah Keke

Alright, typing in the car results in the feeling of puking! Shuckz x-(

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Just me.

I am blogging on my new phone and I expect to have double the amount of typo errors.
Anw, for those that added me on twitter would know that I spammed your timeline with facts regarding my horoscope, cancer. Reasons being that I was scrolling through some twitter accounts for cancer . At the beginning, I was retweeting those super "me" tweets But after someitme, I start to wonder are these tweets about me as me or about me as a cancer. A Cancer is a emotional sign among the horoscope. They tends to hide their feelings as a defense mechanism, to prevent being hurt. Once feeling upsetted, they most likely withdraw themselves from the world in to a solo place of their own. This is being wary of being hurt again. So they seal their emotion and themselves within them, waiting for someone to be caring enough to coach them out of the shell.

And I am just like that. But I am who I am.I am a girl that love to be loved, love smile and be cheerful. I am sad when I a sad. I am who I am. I happened to be thus way. And should not be categorized just by some signs or months I am borned in. I am not to be defined just based on my horoscope sign.

And this is not a cancer kinda thing. Else why is there a common saying of girls being afraid to fall in love after a failed relationship until the next prince comes along, making them fall head over heals again. Are they a cancer then? And no, not just girls. Guys too. We are humans.

This is some random thoughts cuz I realised typing out words is a way for me to clear out bubbling thoughts of mine. Just sometimes I prefer to know no one is reading so that the other side of me will not be seen.

I wish im a rich man's daughter

I am extreme broke and for ONCE I am stressing over money matters. I am so broke that I endured 5 hours of starvation and stomach rumble, since my last meal was 10 hours ago, during lunch =<  JUST BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO SPEND A SINGLE CENTS! I even start thinking twice about going out with anyone cause  ^

I hate the fact that i applied for uni because it caused all this problems! Uni would cause 30k - 40k SGD. And I do not even know who is going to pay for me. In other word, I am 30k - 40k IN DEBT! @#$%^& *berserk* And i was reminded it does not stop at here. I conveniently forget that i still need to cover 4 years of living expenses. AND what if i did not excel in uni? Then everything will come to a waste...

And i can't even get a job because employers find working 4 months is too short. Many credits to Uni again.

Story of my life. !@#$%^&*(
Stressed. Le Sigh.

Finally understand what @fattybombom is going through :(

There's a kid in me

This movie is surprisingly good. 

To begin, I wasn't keen about this movie seeing that i read most of Dr Seuss's books. And i don't believe how a children book, that can be completed in 15 min, could be film into a 1 1/2 hour film. I pretty much linked Lorax to

 

Which i stopped watching halfway through the movie. 

And and and, the movie started of with musical which was too corny for my liking. Oh boy.

BUT.

Yeah, this movie is nice. It was light hearted and managed to intrigue my feelings throughout the movie. For most part, there are additional details/ actions/ etc to enliven the movie and evoking laughter (OUT LOUD) in the cinema. And the sad part, really make me feel sad and pity for..... :'(  Random values taught in the movie would be pollution would be at the price of fresh air. And don't sacrifice your friends and loved ones from personal gain.

Conclusion: I like the light hearted-ness/ simple-ness about this movie and how it can manipulate my emotions :)

The End.

Another perspective

Had a late night chit chat with a dear little friend and it made me comes to realize some things about a relationship. I know right, me giving a lecture on relationship? Scram if you want!

1) "Just because he don't love you the way you wants, doesn't mean he don't love you with everything he got"
Something i saw from tumblr. Which bring us to the second point.

2) Be positive. Look on the bright side. Appreciate every single things he done for you regardless how big or small it is. 
Boyfriend did not give you any gifts for your anniversary? At least he remember the date.
Boyfriend do not have time to accompany you as much as you like? At least he bother to drive you around.
Examples. Just saying.
Go think of what your partner have done for you that you could be grateful and appreciative of. It will make you happier and naturally he will be.
This also means to say don't be envious of other couples that seem "sweeter". Firstly, it make you oversees what your Love had done for you. Secondly, no couples post their quarrels on Facebook/ Twitter right?! What is the point of being jealous when you are unaware of what the complete story would be?

3) Expectation and disappointments
Argh! Seriously?! Screw this.
I guess this is something common in all relationship.
The key is how you handle your expectation. Don't want to be disappointed? Reduce your expectations. Then at least you not only wouldn't be disappointed, and who knows you might be surprised.
I know this sound damn pessimistic. But being let down, facing disappointments really sucks. Don't you think so? :(

4) If you can't change somebody, join him
It is not that i am not caring enough about my boyfriend, and that why i let him do as he wants. Come on, it is easier to go:
"Wah lau! Why are you always doing your hobbies, and neglecting me? Drop your hobbies plox *insert sad face*" Or  "Wah biang! You are always going out to enjoy. Friends first, i second. I don't like you to meet your friends." Or "Wah kao! Why are you always playing Dota? Don't you find it boring ? Stop Dota now!@#$%^"
BUT, I believe in having them making the (right) decision themselves, rather than imposing your will on them. Who likes to be controlled? Let them make the decisions themselves.
Then again, this also leads to more disappointments. And you are left to deal with your it once again.
My suggestion is, on some occasions, join him. If he is going out with his friends, accompany him. If he has a hobby, listen to him, share his excitements. Notice how his face lit up when he talks about it.
On the other occasions, just go and do something with the additional amount of time you have. Watch a movie, listen musics, meet up with friends. Stop focusing that your boyfriend is not with you.
Alright, or you can be a lost puppy and sob.
On a side note, maybe you would like to ignore him until he bother enough to come find you? :D *wink*

So that about it. And no, not all things are between me and Huihan. It is just some of my perspectives i had when i was talking with my friend. And you might disagree but so be it. Nonetheless, happiness, disappointing, arguments, communications, I rather be in a relationship where both parties show commitment than to be in a fling. True story bro.

You.

Happy Valentine  Every Day to you, Dearie <3

Studies.

I realised, some time in poly, i stop setting goals on what i wanna achieve for my examinations. Since Year 3, i dont bother to care much of my studies. Seriously couldnt bother the care yoz. My results slide and i wasnt really as sad as i would have been. There wasnt any effort, to begin so why would i even feel sad? It is my choice that i wanted to sidetrack. And who is anyone to judge? Is there a right or wrong to begin with?
Hey. 我也是人，也会有不想拼小命努力的时候。and i wasnt the kind that like to study anyway. It's just that i took a year break..
And now, i seriously hate studying. Screw it.
But, i will stop this childish mindset. Although late, but i will mug for the remaining paper. This is it.
Goals:
MM: B(+) cause it is over
WSNA: A
WTM: Dist
Maths: B
CSB: B+
FYP: A (although it is not my effort, but it is never to wrong to hope :D)
叶莹莹加油。
想要的东西就放胆去争取吧！

2 more weeks:

Message to Runway.
Okay, so after this one year, i really, really like my group mates, the works we have done so far and even our client!
I think my group mates are all really really really supreme. They are really the best. Patient, encouraging, supportive, VERY capable and most importantly fun loving.

I guess we each have our positive traits and negative traits.

Vyvyan, my dear leader, that will keep the team on track. Without her, I believe we will not be able to progress as well as we did. I think many credits go to her effort she spend on the team and our projects. Vyvyan is someone that i am willing to try harder in order to please her. She is the kinda leader that i am willing to follow and listen to.  I respect her, cause she is the kind of person i admire but will never become :(

Petrine, i think she is kinda my moral support. I seriously dunno why but she is someone i can rely upon in the group. Although she look like those 条儿郎当kinda person. I think actually she is very capable and versatile when it comes down to business. It's like she has a lot creative ideas when it comes to brainstorming and she is able to do out her part well. So i guess, I feel that among us she is the one with the strongest character, and she is the most extrovert kinda person. Hence i will consult her for opinions and to ask her do more work~ But then i think that when she feels antsy, it will influence you to feel the same way too!

Fiona, she gave me the same feelings as Petrine =X That she is emotionally stronger than I am too. And also have an outgoing personality and wacky ideas. But Fiona is the "quickest" among us. She is the kind when you give her a task, she can complete it within that week! But then, she is also will disappear equally fast! >.< Fiona please dont disappear so fast! I would love to bond and chill with you! >.<

All in all, i really think they are the best kind of group members that you can have. And i feel genuine concerns and understandings from them. Nothing more i can ask for.

Words from our leader: We know all the hardwork we had put in together. It's approximately 8 months or so. The time we spend together thinking of ideas, designing the web, running the campaigns, rushing reports and presentations. Everything will come to an end in 10 days time. The day when we will handover. The day when we will not have control over the website anymore

I am glad that we are not only "FYP" group mates but a project team for a whole year. The amount of things we went through, the amount of thing we have completed and achieved. Everything are done as a team, as Runway. I guess this is like saying that all the negative things we been through are to amplify the positive things we gained.  And it definitely worth it.

And our client - MJ. I feel that we are us because of him too. He gave us the freedom to make our decision and never really reject or doubt our proposal especially toward the end. We created Groovinstore the way we like, improvise it the way we want. Our aims are similar as his. And that is to make Groovinstore a success. Do you think we did it? 

But then, in 2 weeks' time, everything changes. Groovin will no longer be the baby we focus on grooming anymore. Neither do we have the authority to groom it the way we wants. Cant bear to leave behind anything, everything.

www.groovinstore.com/
^ Look at our baby. What will become of it?

(Graduation and "朋友" are like the song in my heart currently.)

Theme: Love is in the air :)

Happy Chinese New Year

This year, my Chinese New Year was spent with Baby Love and his family + relatives
At the beginning, i was a little reluctant to go as it will be awkward meeting them (and yeah, i was kinda lazy to travel :x) But I must say it was a real eye opening experience. His family is huge with 7-8 uncles/ aunts on each of his parent's side. And most uncles and aunts have their children, whose children have their own children.  :O

I reached around 8am on lunar day 1. A surprising-ly early timing and i 领悟 that the only way for me to be early for a 8am lesson, is to not sleep at all >.< But luckily for me, i am able to catch close to 3hrs of sleep before waking up and getting ready. By that time, most of his relatives have arrived at his house.

Social awkwardness. I tagged Huihan around the house, greeting everyone i see him greet. But then.. I don't know who they are sia! T_T In my dictionary i only know "uncle, auntie, ah gong, ah ma".  So the feeling is quite paiseh cause i have no idea how i should greet them and i do not want to be deem as disrespectful :< I even feel awkward accepting angbaosssss.

Airhead Yingz

After his relative went back, I planned on going home later in the evening as hh have other visitings at night. But then, his Sao Sao invited me along and it was another super big event =O! Social awkwardness part 2.

After which, we went ehub to play bowling with his sister, her boyfriend and erm.... his "uncle"'s cousin (?) It was really fun although most of the time i went into the gutter! HAHAHAH! Who cares right~! *Glare at the person in the picture below* But seriously, cant wait for the next time i get to play again >^<

Sorry baby, I cant help noticing the "friend hover" =X

Although, I meant to go home that day (again), i stayed over since it was quite late after the game. In other word, i will be going home in the next morning. However, turned out the MRT was out of the way for his dad to drive me and i ended up tagging along to visit 2 other his relatives' house the next day! =O (less) Social awkwardness part 3. It was quite fun cause there are alot children, and even the adults are very friendly. Hehe! Even his aunt say i am slim and fair! ^^(Y) Not "pui pui" + "white white" HOR~ >=)

Finally, his dad meant to drive me to the nearest MRT so i can go home BUT i forget to bring my wallet and handphone. So back to Huihan's house i went! =X

Hahaha! I find the chain of event to be epic! It is like every time i meant to go home but ended up go somewhere else instead. So it was actually fun and exciting for me. And i am surprised i am allowed to tag along for most of it. Overall, this was a really new experience as visiting was never a huge event for me. But i think it wore me out greatly cause everytime when a visiting is over, i instantly K.O. and sleep. *snore*

He handsome right? =D Love you baby! <3