Belated HAPPY NEW YEAR

Alright, so new year has come and go and what does everyone do when it is the new year? Yep, that's right, the obnoxious new year resolutions everyone made at the start of the year but fail to keep it anyway. Yet, we still love to make it doesnt we? :D

New year have pass by for more than a week. But i didnt felt much then. But it suddenly striked me, yesterday, how i wanted my new year to be! So here goes!

1) I must be punctual... Nah! Not going to happen=.=

2) Time management - this mean i should stop procrastinating and do the correct things at the correct time! And yeah, SELF DISCIPLINE!
By the way, do you know that a person procrastinate because he have high expectation of himself but fear of being unable to meet it?
Heavy pessure, heavy burden.
(feeling this way at the moment :/)

3) I shall eat vitamin everyday!
I am practically falling sick every month and im sick of being sick!
So cheers to healthy lifestyle!
Healthy diet, more activities and excercise and looking at the green green more often!

4)Okay! That's is all~ but.... there are still more to come!

5) I WANT TO BE HAPPY! I MUST BE POSITIVE!
hmmm, weird. Have i been too emo recently? I remember the old me to be so positive until the extent of self deception! Hahaha! Not so kua zhang lah! Just a lil only:D

6) I want to improve myself leh:/ Now sure how to go about doing this. But i want to be more independent, more confident, more mature, more knowledgeable, more expressive, more sociable, less self-conscious and 内向. And stop acting like a kid! >_< le sigh.

This is my wish for 2013. 2013 please be good to me.
Looking back at 2012, it had been my hardest year out of my 21 years of living. I have never felt so much hurt before. (erm.. this led to another thought... but is there something wrong w my childhood? To be discuss later... path of self discovery)

But 2012 really is a year which is extremely eventful.
Mugging the last part of FYP
Finally graduating from SP
Been in love and.. out of it..
And been through an extremely heartwrenching sitiation
Screwing up my health
Being in and out of hospital for family, friends and lover
Been lied to, been hurt deeply yet still surviving
Seeing what i thought was happy ever after love turned foe with broken promises and a poor innocent party hurt...
On the brighter note, i get to treasure my kick-ass-will-be-there-through-thick-and-thin friends, which im blessed with.
I get to learn the importance of kinship which im so deprived of..
I get to go on a trip to Genting and Bkk, both trip which i enjoyed myself very much
I get to enjoy all my friends 21st birthday and this year been the only year where i stayed at a hotel:D Let alone staying at 4(?) times?
SIM started and i get to know really interesting peoples
And i guess past issues will improve..?

And now i reach this stagnant point where i am lacking social lifestyle and having full of self doubt. Especially toward life and what is the point of every thing i am doing now. Everything just feels so meaningless. A rat race.
I am so bored with life that i suspect i could even be suffering from slight depression!
Yes, it is that serious!
But based on Maslow's need theory, maybe only physiological needa is met and the rest is in the orange zone?? ://

Alright. Good night. Bye.

(Typed through phone. Not edited.)